love me dont leave me.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006
8:52:00 AM

Haiz. Recently dont know is it offend those thingy in red house when we last go visit them. =X Cause alot of my buddy was so suai and suddenly have alot of problems popping out right after the chalet. Haiz.
Take me as first example. Me and JingHan. Haiz. We have like being having alot of problems to each other whereby we used to be so close to each other yet now we are stranger to each other or maybe enemy. Haiz.
Second example is Ray and Stephaine. Although their problem is much more smaller than me and jinghan de but still quite troublesome la. Ray kissed Stephaine cheek when he was drunk. Then stephaine got angry and fear of ray nowadays. They used to be close friend too. They used to be long time friend already. 4 to 5years lehz. And just a kiss will destroy de friendship. Damn. From my personal opinion, Stephaine was petty and over-reaction. Indeed she may not like a friend who is not her's bf to kiss her but ray did apologise on that day liao, so why bother so much. People already said sorry liao so let the matter rest la. No need to destroy this friendship de ma. Haiz.
Third is Lester and Stephaine. Damn this lester. Haha. He fall in love with Stephaine and now he has been keep telling me this and that. Damn i jealous ok. He said stephaine feed me cake lehz. Me and stephaine share same straw lehz. We share same drinks lehz. Blah blah blah. Damn ok. I jealous that i cant do that with jinghan ok. Haha. Aiya bro, you got greater chance den me la. just go ahead and ask her the most important question liao. DONT DRAG LIAO. haha. Wish you luck.
Fourth is Yi da and Wynny. Although i dont know how wynny character are but i know yi da love her alot. Haiz. She forgotten that she dated yi da during her birthday already which make yida so sad man. Haiz. gal ah gal. He wants to try to give up wynny. Haiz. Bro i know it will be a very hard time to you, but you have my support ok? got things just tell me, i will be your side and be your ear. Haha. =)
Fifth is en ci. Bao Bei ah Bao Bei. I know you got alot of problems in your heart that you dont wish to tell me and let me worried. I know, but when you dont wanna want to say it to me isnt it you making me more worried? Haha. You know you are like my younger sister lehz. So you are my precious, i cannot let you have anythings happened to you. you know? haha. Bao Bei remember that you already dated me on next week to go out shopping hor. Dont forget. Hee.

Haiz. Enough of my friends prob le. Now is my prob le. Haiz. Damn. I have a lousy family but have a great mother and second sister. Haha they dote me lot lot nehz but not the rest. haiz. Now also rarely see my second sis le, as she was like 1week got 5 days staying over her's bf hse. Haiz. Hate my family lot lot nehz. I been suffering since primary 2 or 3 and do all my friends know? they dont know. They thought i lived in a wonderful and perfect life but they are wrong. I been suffering but i choose not to tell my friends. Haiz. And Jinghan said me that i never suffered before. Haiz. I know your friend died is a great blow to you, but do you know the feeling that it been haunting me when i was small. Haiz. I was just a small kids at that time, i was totally lost, i dont know what to do when the problems keep coming out. Haiz. Maybe i suffered more den all of you. Haiz. It have been around 10years already since the problems come out. Haiz. I dont wanna continue stay at this damn bloody family. I will one day leave this house and bring my mum together with me. Sian. Haiz. JINGHAN, do you know i still like you alot alot alot alot leh, no matter how much you did to me, no matter how much hurt you gave me. I STILL LIKE YOU WOR. haiz. Think you will never see this and you will never know. Haha.

Anyway this blog i only let my pig pig friend lisa know. Lisa you are so lucky. Haha.

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