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Thursday, August 30, 2007
1:00:00 AM

Exam is over. I am so happy about it. Because if i pass all the paper, it would mean that i no need to study BOOKS anymore. Haha. No projects, no lab test, no MST, no SE. Haha. After exam, i take 2days break for myself. Last saturday went to dear dear's house watched soccer and slept in her house( living room la).

After that night, i been working days and nights for some freaking peanuts money. Seriously i really lack of sleeping. And today, 30 August, i should be off de and enjoy some personal time with family and my gal, but i was ask to go bugis work( set up new stall). It was all my manager fault. First he told me like my gal alrdy agree to go there work, den i tot is true den i bo bian agree. Den when he hang up de phone, he told my gal i agree to go(actually my gal didnt agree in the first place de). Den because like tis, i was so call been cheated to go bugis work. Haiz.

Anyway, the class BBQ is cancelled. Kinda disappointed, but it ok cause i wont lose out anything, in fact i can get more sleep instead of cracking my head of booking pit, planning foods, buying foods, collect money, etc, etc. It not my personal BBQ, and i not the planner. My job was to contact everybody go BBQ. Dont make me do all the job. I not an idle person who do nothing at home, playing dota or online game. I work all day long to earn that freaking peanuts money because i am broke. I didnt take any money from my parent. That why i need to work.

Hope internship faster come. Faster end the poly life.

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Friday, August 10, 2007
12:01:00 AM

Although now is 10 of August but I still consider now as 9 of August. Haha. I don't care. Haha. Today was Singapore Birthday. So a happy birthday to you, Singapore. Haha. Today I went to work, although very long didn't work, kinda miss that place( but not the people, simply the place only) but I am not really please today. Haha. I miss Yida. Haha.

After work, me and dear went to Novena Pepper Lunch for our dinner. Why we went there is because we are meeting dear's mum and sisters over there. Haha. Faiz was a kind person. Daniel cooked for us the dinner. After dinner, we went to City hall and esplande( think spell like this ba). It was so crowded and human walking here and there. I hope to see zombies. Haha. Anyway we found a good spot for watching fireworks. At around 8.20 like that, the fireworks start and it was so nice. Really enjoy watching it together with dear dear. haha. =)
Anyway I saw quite few chio bu, quite a few big boobs girl, quite a few ugly old women wearing low cut dress, the rest soso la. Haha. On the way back, the city hall mrt station was crowded with people, and the people there was stuck as the station was overwhelming by the crowd. Haha. Dear's daddy called and say drive us home, kinda pai seh but after that den it ok liao. Haha.

After reach home, I faster pia Ethic Assignment. Although is tml den submit but it better to do it now den tml. Haha. Den that all for today, I going to sleep liao. Eye closing shop liao. =)

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Tuesday, August 07, 2007
2:12:00 PM

Last week friday, I went to "exercise" with lester. It started from 8pm and ended at 10pm. It was really tough for me as I didnt really exercise ever since my O level finish, thus I becoming more and more fatter. haha. So last friday, I went to jog with lester. I started running from my house(Bukit Batok) to Phoenix LRT station then to LOT1 shopping mall( as in outside the mall) then to Sunshine Place(one part of Chua Chu Kang) then from there, we ran back to Bukit Gombak by the New Road. Then we walk back home. After we reached HomeTeam, lester go back his house by bus 187 and I walked back home. After that, I got muscle ache for three days three nights. haiz. That all for my exercise topic.

Back to studies, I really have been study hard and i mean reallyyyyy hard. Think I study that hard till I have neglected my girl. Sorry dear. I don't want to be like this de, but I have no choice. It my fault for being lazy ever since my poly life start. I always thought that I can pass my o level easily so my poly life also can do it. As in "just a pass grade" has been grow in my brain and I always don't work hard for my modules because i don't intend to go university, so why should I work so hard? This question has been always floating in my mind. When i saw this sentence "why always help them, don't let them drag you down. They don't deserve to help, cause they don't even want to help themselves."
Do I always dragged my friend down? I also want to do stuff by myself, help my friend solve things out, but I just don't know how to do. Maybe I really so stupid that I can't do anything. Because of this reason, that why I am working so hard now. Yesterday i stayed in school till 10pm. I really hope that I can faster finish my poly life and go NS. I don't want to study anymore. haiz. It so stressful now. Project not done and exam coming soon on next tuesday.

Hope I can get more moral support from the kin and friends I have. Haiz. =(

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