love me dont leave me.

Sunday, October 26, 2008
1:35:00 AM

I just came back from another field camp. Yeah. It was my second field camp within this two weeks. Kinda shagged this time round. My second field camp site was at Pulau Tekong. During this field camp, I managed to see my Ex-PC Lt Yee Aun, and SGT Shafiq. Able to see them make me feel kinda an boost in morale. Haha. I just felt that way, sound stupid huh. =)

After this field camp, I felt that I had slim down even more. My tummy is gone, my mum and some of my relative also said I much more skinny than before. Haha. I proud of my perseverance. The method of getting this success is starvation. Haha. I starve myself during field camp. The reasons why I'm doing this is because I want to get slim down and the combat ration food really taste suck. I hate it. Haha. Although I have already slim down, I still don't get the six pad. Haha. Think I gonna train even more la.

I found out that I made some changes/achievements to myself unknowingly when I went to NS.

The changes are:
I don't really play much games nowadays, perhaps more gathering with friends.
I dont really watch soccer, perhaps more to taiwan idol drama series.
More focus on personal fitness.
More focus on myself than others.

Some achievements are:
Able to pass all the SOC station.
Able to pass IPPT (maybe an silver standard).
More sense of responsibility to others (maybe because of going to become sect. comm.) .

Sometimes I just felt tired, be it mentally or physically.
Nico shall stand firm to his ground. Never regret, Never look back. Always stand up again after a heavy fall. That me. Nicodemus Chua Sze Chuan. =)

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Sunday, October 19, 2008
1:53:00 AM

This post will be very random. Just very confused about myself. Hope can find my way out.

I just walk out a very big step. I been living in guilty for quite sometime, but now I know the truth. I can only say. GET OUT OF MY LIFE THEN. I will never live in that guilty anymore. I shall now do my part and believe or not, you will be transparent to me from now on.

May god bless you.

Labels: Just Random.

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Sunday, October 12, 2008
12:40:00 AM

First, I want to say this out loud. I'M 21 YEARS OLD LE. Finally I'm an officially and legally become an ADULT liao. Must become more and more mature. Think for people before us. That is the condition for becoming an section commander.

After my 21st, there is some good things and one bad things happened to me.
First good things is, I passed my IPPT test 1.

The result are:
SBJ: 225cm
shuttle run: 10.1
Pull up: 7
sit up: 40
2.4km: 10.30sec

kinda happy with the result, because I always fails in IPPT either SBJ or pull up. Now if I can pull my chin up till 8, I will be able to get silver for IPPT first time in my life. Kinda pity that I didn't manage, but I still quite satisfied with my result already because I've been improving since past one week. Thanks to chow tat for accompany me do chin up, if not I don't think I can improve that much.

Second happy thing is, I can finally complete all the station during SOC. Maybe I can complete the station because I didn't wear/take LBV, helmet, and rifle. But it was an boost to my morale as I never complete it before even at BMTC. I starting to feel I getting slimmer and fitter each day. Haha.

The only one thing that upset me is, I might get confinement(3X), or guard duty, or redo gypsy 2 again. Sian. Why so suai. I don't wish to say so much about the story, but from the exercise I can see people true colours. And I don't blame bao for got lost that time, seriously it was not his fault. Punishment are awaiting for us. Please bless me good luck.

Da. Good luck to you, hope things will get better for you and see the msn nick again. =D

message of the day:
It is not easy to be an section commander nor easy to become section commander.

Labels: Unfortunate things happened again.

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Sunday, October 05, 2008
10:23:00 AM

Labels: Photos for yesterday outing.

Going to 21 le. I think I have already grown up a little bit more then 1 year ago. This year, a lotsa things happened to me.

Be it sad, disappointed, angry, happy, or joyful, I have tend to handle things in a more optimistic view.
I will try my best to look into the things in their own shoes. This may be the part I been overlook since the past. Learn from the mistake is one of the greatest effort human being must do, so as history wont happen twice. Haha.

So I will try my best to improve myself.

Today I had an joyful day with my buddies. Lester, Raymond, and Yida asked me out to celebrate my birthday. Kinda touched eh. Haha. No la. Erm, actually I dun wish to trouble people to celebrate with me. To me, birthday is just an normal birthday, there is no necessary to create so much troubles for people. 21st birthday is birthday, 22nd also birthday, so every year must create chalet or BBQ ma? Maybe I just want low profile ba? I don't know.

I got some fotos for today trip. I post it again tml. Tired. Sleep liao. =)

Labels: Grown up.

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Wednesday, October 01, 2008
6:14:00 PM

Today is Hari Raya. Thanks to our fellow muslim friends, we got today as public holiday too. Haha. Last time, I don't find public holiday as a precious moment, but I changed my view ever since I went in NS.

When I was still a student, everyday seems to be like holiday to me. I never serious in study, do things also half fcuk half fcuk standard. But when I entered NS, days are hard to pass, so any public holidays to us is a precious moment as in we rarely can book out.

Today, it was a precious public holiday. I spent my afternoon with zhen jie, zhang qian, daniel and alvin. It has been long time since we last meet especially zhang qian. Haha. We went to bugis for an simple lunch and a short chit chat period as daniel need to book in later at 6pm. We had Fish & co as our lunch and I ordered new york fish and chip for myself. After the fish and chip, zhang qian and zhen jie stunned me with a strawberry cheesecake and they sang me a happy birthday song. LOLX. I feel so pai seh sia. Haha.

Anyway, thank guys for giving me this surprise. I really happy and appreciate for this. =)
you guys brightened up my day. Haha. Sorry if I cant rememeber you guys birthday. People who know me should know that I can only remember three person hp nos only. I suck in numbers. Haha.

Thanks for everything.

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