Wednesday, September 29, 2010
2:35:00 AM
It sad to hear that I got so many flaws in your heart. It too many till you can't see the good pts I have? Those good stuffs that you said to me in the past seems to be gone. I don't do things to show off infront of you, but rather you find out the surprises I prepare and give it to you yourself. I may not be a super romantic guy, but I strongly believe I'm a faithful guy.
If you want the trust you wanted for, I can only say I can't give you that much. You should know very well about my hurtful past. I dare not give it to you so soon.
Your definition of love is must understand each other than can say consider love. But my definition of love is must put in your heart and soul. If you can understand me, you should know why I always so worried for you. To me, I felt that nobody can totally understand each other, but it possible that you can understand the other one like 70% if you know him/her well and long enough.
Anyway, out to my surprise, it was jasmine, the girl that I'm once dislike the most at my workplace realise that the smile on my face was a fake smile. She approached me and ask me whether I'm fine or not. She some how know my emotion was affected. Even my "mum" clara understand me with just a simple handsign. Hope my fake smile won't last any longer on my face.
Got to go MOM soon. After work, I will be go St James. Die. Not enough rest = drunk later.
Labels: Another sad moment.
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